A student of mine inspired me to write in English. I just don’t know why. Maybe because, supposedly, I am good in writing in English since that is my field of expertise. Or maybe because I am just that sick person who has been insecure all his life with people who are good in a way or another. Am I thinking aloud or what? I don’t know, I’m just jotting down everything that I feel right now.
Lately, thoughts have been gathering around my head for some reasons.
Love and kindness have the same look but take a second glance. Maybe you’re blinded by the masks they wear but you have to see what’s inside or else, heartache will be around to kill you with tears.
I want to break free from all of these. I want to get away from all my worries. These worries that shouldn’t bug me at all but they do.
I am so pissed off with all those false prophets, declaring that they are the chosen ones of the Lord. It seems like hell is on its way to conquer the earth through the image of these people. They begin to accuse people of doing something without asking their sides. It’s a one man show! It’s a one sided story. It’s total bullshit.
I hate it when you want to leave somebody behind. It’s hard to let go of something which has been a part of yourself for the past years. It’s hard to leave something behind which has been there, seeing and contributing to the continuous development of your body and soul. But I already saw another lady love. My heart belongs to another one. I am torn between two stubborn rocks.
It is funny to think that as a teacher, you see a part of yourself in every student of yours. You may not be that identical with your pupils but you can see a percentage of you, living in him. Because of this, reflections come and you begin to realize so many things not only about them but also about yourself. You begin to understand what is good and what is irritable in your behavior. You start to assess your own soul.
Four years of my life was spent to the Thomasian community and I say, I am so proud if I will be able to graduate this year. Imagine in one year, the Tigers conquered the basketball court by winning the championship of both male and female, seniors division. In addition to that, the Salinggawin Dance Troupe also bagged their “5”peat championship in the UAAP cheer dance competition. Moreover, Teatro Tomasino, the university wide theater guild of UST, also comes back in the Cultural Center of the Philippines through Waiting in the Wings, performing Jose Victor Torres’s “No Questions Asked” (ehem…I was just only the Stage Manager of this event. Hehehehehe) Whoa! What a year for UST?! What a good year to leave it with all the laurels surrounding her head.
In line with what I said a while ago, I’ve spent four years of my life studying in the Pontifical and Royal and Catholic University of UST. A lot of changes have been done, literally. The establishment of the UST Tan Yankee Student center, the Alumni Park with the beautiful Fountain which was the former Colayco Park, the inclusion of bricks in front of the UST Main Building, the inauguration of new colleges and institutes, the changes in the administration and a lot more to mention. With these changes, it’s so great to grasp that I also changed as a person. When I first came to UST, I was so immaculate I didn’t know a single thing. Now that I am about to step my foot out, I am so sure that I am equipped with the proper knowledge and wisdom to make it through the outside world. I was so innocent when I came in and now, I am a person with intelligence to face life and its ups and downs. Along with the changes in UST, changes came in me that make a greater person in me.
Whoa! A lot of ideas inside my head! I just don’t know how to deal with them. Now I just want to blab what’s inside my skull and what impulses my neurons have right now.
