Archive for August, 2005

on moving on

Saturday, August 27th, 2005
hey! i miss blogging. ive been busy these past few days. i have a lot of things to work on.
its so nice to have this feeling. i love this feeling inside. im slowly becoming alright. im beginning to move on from an unreciprocated love. i was hurt and i was dumped. i felt i was unworthy for something i wanted to have. but now, as i step forward towards a new morning, im regaining my strength. ive come to the realization that life is beautiful, full of promising rainbows after depressing storms.
moving on is not an easy thing but i know things will pay off beautifully. its not easy denying something that you really love…but i have to do this for the sake of my soul, my dignity…and my heart.
and here i am again, all alone…like how i used to be. but after you left me, i strived to smile and laugh a little bit. i know you’re happy now, and i think i deserve to feel the way you’re feeling. im maybe alone…but i know i’ll be happy…in time!

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Maskara

Tuesday, August 16th, 2005

masakit…

hindi ko mapagkait ang katotohanang masakit ang mga nakikita ko at naririnig. pilitin ko man ang sarili kong wag maapektuhan pero wala akong magawa. pilitin ko man ngumiti pero makikita na sa mata ko na gusto ko nang umiyak sa sobrang hapdi. ayokong makita niya, ayokong iparamdam sa kanya. sana hindi niya makita…NAIIYAK NA AKO!

hindi ko maintindihan, bakit ang hirap gawin ng salitang "lumimot"? Kasi may kinalaman na rin yung damdamin mo.

Well i guess im tryin to be nonchalant about it
And led into extremes to prove im fine without you
But in reality im slowly losin my mind
Underneath the guise of smile gradually im dying inside
Friends ask me how i feel and i lie convincingly
Coz i dont want you to feel the fact that im suffering
So I wear my disguise till i go home at night
Turn down all the lights and then i breakdown and cry

BREAKDOWN
Mariah Carey
Butterfly

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