The Heart of a Curricularalist Speaks

all my life, ive been searching for someone to love me…who will accept me amidst of my imperfections. i’ve already found a dozen peeps in my life who already did it. my friends embraced me for who i am. though i’m not good enough, i know they will still accept me.

but i’ve been looking for a partner; someone who will be intimately be with me. i’m a little bit envy to some friends whenever i see them having sweet moments with somebody. i never had lover since i entered my adolescence. hey! don’t get me wrong. i’m not desperate of having some intimacy but i think it’s not wrong if you want a little romance in your tender ages.

yes! i want someone who will love me for who i  am…someone who will stand by me when blue skies turn to gray…someone who will help me face the odds and uncertainties of life…someone who enjoys hearing my laughter and my babbling…someone who’ll whisper he loves me more than his life…someone i can love.

i already loved quite a few men in my life. i gave them what i could and loved them with my all. but it seems like they enjoy seeing me cry…seeing me breakdown…seeing me hurt. due to these, i asked myself, "is there someone out there for me? am i destined to be hurt all the time?". most of the time, i felt like asking myself. so many questions of the broken heart but most of them were left unanswered.

oh well! they say that love comes in the most un expected time. maybe i don’t have to wait for it. maybe i just have to be with the flow of life. maybe in time i’ll be happy in the arms of the one i’ve been looking for. may be not not…in time!

i hate it when i do this, telling the whole world how i long to be somebody’s somebody.

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